Baby Niece, my darling!

Frustrated

If only life is alot more simpler and beautiful....

Sometimes can't help but to feel that way.

Life and humans are always complex and doubtful.

Just dunno why, I am not happy. Maybe I know why, but I dont wish to know why.

What is what? I hate it. Just why can't mine be much better, not the best but just better.

I am tired of accepting whatever I don't wish to accept.

It just suck!

Thailand - Nov 09

Well spent with my love ones... =)

Anticipating

Been feeling very slpy the whole week.

Looking forward to my Thailand trip next week with my loved ones. It has been a while since we spend time tgt and make time to go for a short holiday trip. Cant wait to be away from my work and cant wait to leave my hometown cos Spore has no more places for me to go.

My niece is coming to a mth this Sunday and I am so excited to see her! I cant wait to hold her in my arms. Must be vert soft and she defnly smells like heaven. Babies are really so tender and cute! She will be the 1st I carry. keke.

Went to John Little sales today and bought myself an exfoliating body scrub (oatmeal & shea butter), wonder if the result will be good.

I haven been blogging lately, very lazy indeed. Everyday has been facing the damn bloody computer, didnt feel like doing the same at home. I would prefer to have some private time alone doing other stuffs.

I really feel that life is ever changing, the different stages of life brings different lifestyles. I was in deep thoughts about how the hell my life change drastically esp this year. Life without much partying, drinking or nightlife is boring in a way but I do feel reluctant to go out most of the time. It could be myself being very lazy or maybe I had enough of these nightlife. I have been staying at home on weekends pretty much often.

Unless I need to get something, otherwise I will be lazing at home and catch nice shows or even naps. That explains why I am so looking forward to travel cos I really hope I can explore other places and that gives me a new experience.

Christmas is approaching soon and I have yet to make any plans for that. I reckon nothing much to do or nice places to go. I saw the decorations at Orchard area, fantastic!

Work has been rather stagnant, except for my boss's change of habits. He practically smokes inside our little office and choke us with those stinky ciggarette smell. Imagine, air-con area (a small area though) is all filled with the ciggies smell. It reminds me of those time when I worked in Dungeon. Suffocated, disturbing and extremely smelly. It's the after-smell that I hate.

My immediate boss is doing my appraisal for this year and this is the 1st appraisal I have. Wonder how is my performance over here and what is her advice on my work performance??

I heard we will all be taking our AWS by Dec. Hooray~ What should I do with the $$? tsk tsk~

Gonna try out my body scrub....till then!

Life is Fragile

All of us went to visit my uncle with a heavy heart...

I just saw him 2 weeks ago, healthy and jovial as usual but the last I heard of him, he was hospitalized. He was rushed to the hospital, in ICU.

We are all so worried about him, tears filled all our eyes. Why him? He is still unconscious.

I pray hard for you to regain consciousness and please be strong, dont ever give up!

We will wait for you to recover and be ur usual self once again.

May God's prayers wake u up and quickly come back to us soon.

Miss u....

Unpredictable me

Lately, I havent been feeling in the right state of mood. My mind is not functioning properly too. Sigh~

I wonder wad is wrong with myself. I just feel lethargic and practically no interest in all the things ard me. Maybe I am no good at handling trivial matters at work, I just cannot draw the clear thin line between rational, objective and emotions.

I just lost the drive I have all these months. Sometimes, I really do feel unpredictable about myself and the mood I have inside me. Sometimes, I just feel so suffocated by my surroundings. I cant "breathe" and I just cant handle my emotions. I wonder why cant I hold the emotions within myself?

I guess I have been reading way too much in ppl's thoughts or words, leading to negative thoughts and actions. In split seconds, my mood just switched completely. Sigh.

Am I sick or what? Why do I feel so cranky most of the times?

What can I do to ease all this unnecessary tension sitting inside me?

Weekend Rendezvous' at Sentosa Underwater World

It's been many yrs since I last went to Sentosa Underwater World. It's great! Though it's kind of crowded as it is a PH, I still enjoy myself very much.

I seldom go out on a Sat noon, will usually laze at home.

Really appreciate him for keeping me accompany on a Sat noon like this. It's been a while since I get to go out like this. :)

Weekend well spent!

Raye's "Sweet 16" at Le Bar

Was invited by the bday boy to his "Sweet 16" partae last Sat. It was a blast of cos as it is packed with sooo~ many of his friends. Luckily I was accompanied by my bf, otherwise I reckon I will be left stranded alone somewhere most of the time while my best friend is busy entertaining her bf's friends (also to take care of him in case he got too high & drunk).

We didnt really took alot of pictures that night, only managed to capture a few over here. Glad that at least I've got the chance to sing. Tee hee~

Here he goes again.

We can never have a peace of mind!

I just dont get it why do such irresponsible man exist at all? Call yourself a man?!

Since young, what I heard of you is nothing but trouble. You caused the trouble but others clear the bloody shit for you!

All these years, what do you live for? What have you lived for? What role have you played? What have you acheived? What have you earned?

YOU HAVE NEVER DONE YOUR PART!!!

You contributed nothing but trouble. Trouble that implicates the whole of us. Trouble that gives the one you vow to take care of disappointment after disappointments.

You are nothing but a greedy pig. All you want is greed and lust! The sight of you really irks me to the core.

You have never in my life set a good example. You really dont worth my respect! You are just nothing but a loser cos for all the decades you have lived, you lived in vain!

You practically have no sense of wisdom! I dont even feel the least sympathy I thought I wld felt. You dont learn at all! You never learn from all the past mistakes at all!

YOU NEVER REPENT!!!

What a joke! You are indeed a laughing stock.

When will you ever come to your senses?

Please, just go away. No one needs you and it doesnt make any difference to us anymore. You have lost it long ago.

Now, I'm even sure that you are better off a nobody to me.

I rest my case.

Sunday again?

Been wanting to watch Supernatural Season 4 since 9835962mths ago. My boss said that he will lend me his DVDs but till now he hasnt. He must have forgotten abt it.

I tried to youtube this show but it kinda pissed me off as all the episodes are not complete or rather tht particular episode I wanted to watch is somehow an introduction only?

I am so lazy to google it. Sigh, maybe I shd get it myself. That's the problem of waiting for ppl to lend me. I rather have it myself.

It's a Sunday again. Gosh, the days just passed like there's no tmr? Scary isnt it? I'm kinda bored you see. Thr's practically no one at home (besides my granny & maid). My siblings are always out and all the weekends they are yet to be seen at home. My sis worse, the entire week for consequtive weeks. I guess tht's normal for her age?

I cant wait for my holiday trip in Nov, still a long way to go though. Just thought that a break will be good. My superior is taking her break in Nov & Dec too. At least a week long. I doubt I can take a week break as my earned leave doesnt permit me.

This weekend is a "sleeping" week for me. Been so tired and I dreamt non-stop. -_-"

I really wonder what can we do here in Spore? I somehow got quite bored over here. Staying at home and going out seems no diff for me. Boring~ Sometimes, I wld have little weird feelings running inside me. Sigh, I dont really like it.

It's been very long since I last went to Vivo City. Still remember I used to go there quite often during the weekends noon.

I wld really loved to travel constantly cos I need some new environment to perk me up, I'm dying....

Frankly, growing up is a detestable thing. If I'm still a kid, how nice will it be? Nth to worry about and all I know is to play. Little things will cheer me up or I get easily contented with small little presents. I still rem, all my pressies or toys are from my mom. Only her, will buy me toys, new shoes and new school bag.

Oh ya, I've finally gotten rid of those sticks and tht pleases my mom. Goes the same to me too. I wonder how cld I have done it? Amazingly unbelievable :)

I seriously do not know what shd I do now? Watch tv? Google for shows to watch? Laze ard? Argh~ wadever.

喜事

Solemnisation for the newly wed couple
Me, jie & Xiu

Me, sis, Yinhua, jie, aunt & Xiu

Sumptous lunch @ Peony Jade restaurant

Cousins lovin'

Another member in my family is finally tying the knot after being tgt for like 4 or 5yrs? Really happy for them and sincerely wish them 白头到老, 早生贵子!

:)

Time flies

I really cant believe how time flies...

It's gonna be October soon and this marks the end of year approaching. So scary!

My baby niece Kariel, is soon coming out to see the world and everyone of us is filled with anticipation and excitement of this new member! Lucky her, to be born in Spore and to this family. She is sure to be dote on and pampered like a princess as she is the 1st baby among the cousins.

Next year, she is gonna call me "yi-yi" and I seriously feel so weird abt it but somehow will still feel happy.

I've been eating alot lately :( just cant help with my itchy mouth la. Not so much of snacking but good food or fatty food?

Anyway, Oct & Nov is gonna be very busy for me. Many big projects are coming in and we are shortage of manpower. Overwhelm with jobs now.

Hope we can tide through this period.

Till then..

JB on a Friday evening.

Went in to JB ytd evening to get some nice & cheap mooncakes. Honestly, JB mooncakes are really cheaper than spore's. I heard from my cousin that durian ping pi cost $80 for a box here in spore but I manage to get 2pcs of durian ping pi at ringgit $20 only?

We also bought a box of those normal mooncakes of pandan flavour and the lotus one. I'm not a big fan of mooncakes though, but tried their mooncakes ytd and it is not too bad afterall.

I bought a pair of shoes at Vincci and we head for seafood at Skudai. The place is very run down with hand-build houses with lotsa big fat lizards crawling all over those houses. Omg!

The place we dine is somewhat like a concrete kelong but the tide is low ytd. We had pepper crab, drunkard prawn, kangkong & ostrich meat. Well, all I can say is the food there is so-so only but of cos for the kinda $ u pay, dont expect 5 star food lah. Altogether, we spend like ringgit $74 for our dinner. So it's about S$35+? Cheap.

Frankly, I really dont dare to stay in JB till too late cos I think it is not very safe there. The roads are all so dark. Spore & JB is jus a custom away but the difference is like heaven and earth.

Singapore is still the best! :)

s t e p h & v i n z

The gf and bf

Smooch..

Finally outta "kampong"

Me & him

Le Bar with my bestie

我爱你...

Hold on to my hands & never let go...

The man I love. :)