I felt so numb.

I rem wad i was before & compare with wad i am nw, the drastic changes i've made..i cant imagine hw i did it, nw thinking back i really regret doing alot of things. Recently i've been feeling tht i no longer knw wad is freedom. Maybe bcoz i've nt been working but thn i just felt tht i somehw lost my freedom in certain things. I felt like a bird in a cage. I thought most things will be paid off if u've put in effort or even extra effort but actually it's just my wishful thinking. I realise once there're too many doubts & lies in a r/s, tht r/s can nv be happy. Having too many past issues & 3rd parties can easily trigger one's wound badly. Whenever these wounds r touched again, i got so agitated till i really cant control my temper. I cant stop yelling!

I'm really very pissed off at those bitches! Claiming they're so pathetic but the fact is also bcoz they're realistic! They want big $, more $ all bcoz their bloody country cannot give them enough & provide them enough. Isnt it the same as hw some guys think of spore girls - realistic, materialistic? Guys who can say they dont expect much, but if they dont expect much y will they wanna come spore & live here or even marrying spore guys? Of coz they cant expect much compared to spore girls coz they come frm poor country wad! Like we cant expect much if we're gg to US or Aus right? I really cant stand this!

I find it so hard to explain hw i'm feeling right now. Hatred? All i knw is, it's accumulative!

Import Night @ Expo

Posh car - Lotus

1 of the race queen
Honda Integra - beautifully set up
Race queen for Honda EG6, pretty?

We're the 1st to set our feets in the room!

I'm finally her stylist for tht day :)

Our full strength

The happy bday girl

w/o make up we're still so beautiful :D

Haven slpt for a night *still awake

A toast to our mojitos
we're the survivors ;D

Us tgt with Bec's bf - Raye bday boy

My sistas & I ok i dont knw wad exactly happens here

HELLO everyone!! I'm back! Hee. MIA in my blog for so long alrdy. Well, as mentioned in my previous post, i went to work with rebecca. It was a tedious job. Nevertheless, it was also fun working with her. All tht slacking we do tgt, breakfast tgt makes me grow fat can! I can eat 4 freaking meals a day!

Btw, my dear girls, the bday pressie i got for myself using ur hardearn $ is a Gucci wallet :) Will show it to you 1 day. Becca & I are both so broke! Working as a sales exec aint easy ya. My manager has been chasing me for sales and so happen my Exh 4 booths (total of 12 over thousand) are all gone! sobs! There goes my sales...

I need more sales please! God bless me..

Which Tarot card am I?

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Feeling blue..

Been some time since i last posted something here... Recently, have been facing lots of ups & dwns. Sometimes i wonder if it's only a dream, everything will be so good. It's just like sitting on an emotional roller-coaster, bringing me to its climax & eventually come to a stop. Nothing is long-lasting for me, esp the happiness i've always longed for. I really cant figure out what went wrong for me. Why all this is happening again & again? When is it gonna stop? Life shld be optimistic as life itself is sad enuff but how to stay optimistic when nothing good happens? Yes, i'm very negative...bcoz of all this unhappiness! I really hope to get out of all this ASAP! Hope after my 21st Birthday, it will bring me more luck & happiness for my strength to carry on my path........

In the process of colouring my hair

Finally, aft 3hrs...
That's me!! Like a wa-wa..

Meet Jasimin gf today. Went to Cantonment to settle some old issues and headed to Chinatown dye hair! My hair stylist Elyse is a good one! *thumbs up! She is very professional and loves to dolls me up...Had a great day today with gf. Thanks gf! On ur way back in the train, stinky feet smell start to choke up the whole area..we were wondering whose feet was tht. *puke puke! Wanted to eat the slice fish soup @ Pasir Ris Dr 6, waited like hell for cab. Ulu pandan area with no cabs at all! Lucky we still manage to hop on to one. Satisfied dinner!

Finally recently out of depression. It's killing me. Now i'm a happy little girl again *winks! Bday approaching in abt 1mth plus time..gosh 21 here i come! A little reluctant though. It's always good being young. Very soon aft 21, all the 22, 23, 24....will come damn fast! Hate it! Huiru alrdy 22. Omg. Times flies. Miss those younger days. Have lotsa fun, nuttin but only fun. With all the drink, drank, drunk..all the dancing & partying all night long is hell loads of fun! But nw? Seems like punctured alrdy. (lao hong)

More updates coming up soon...(hopefully)

Special thanks to my darlings: Rebecca and serene for the unlimited care & concern you've given me! Love u'all!

I always believe that human nature is ugly.

Always full of the unheard truth, fake frenships.

Life is full of uncertainty. I happen to come across a friend-ed who behaves like a small kid. I add the"ed" coz it's a past-tense. I dont knw wad word to use for my tht friend-ed. Well, 21 is the official age for a young ADULT. Mind you, it's ADULT. Y behave like an immatured big baby? Your actions proved everything. Wad is the most admirable personality to me? It is: being able to ignore wad shld be ignored and let those ppl carry on acting childishly. Y flaunt all the materialistic status? Wad's so great abt having a LV, Gucci or wadever?

I want to have it my own. I wanna earn enuff $ to get wadever ppl need others to get them. Tht's me! Omg, i'm gg too far.

It's raining nw. I'm waiting for Serene to come fetch me. Meeting her for some slacking. Tired from work though, but damn, it's a friday night.

I need some clubbing soon.

Ciaoz!!

Shimin's ROM just ended last Saturday.

It's a BLISSFUL one. That's wad it means. Everyone is so happy for this newly-wed couple!! The 5 of us used to be so so close during sec sch time. So many yrs of friendship is not for show ya. I believe not many ppl can have such friendship coz we been thru' thick & thin. Many used to be close to us, we had fun tgt, club tgt etc..but who r really the ones tht eventually still stay and r still friends with us? The ans is: NONE. Well, now we knw who really are the passing clouds and who are not. Afterall, time will tell. True friends are those that understands you, forgives you, shares with you, cry with you and laugh with you. Those that doesnt falls in this category i suppose they're just passer-bys. I am proud coz i've them as my friends. Really. Sometimes thinking back our younger times, it's really a memory that will keep me smiling always. I will only wonder y there r some who doesnt really have true & constant friends.

Been on leave ytd n today to rush my final project. It's done. The rest will need my darling again to help me... heehee... thanks alot! Back to work tmr in a new office. Sigh. Surely got lots to do. Well, everything is going very well for me maybe bcoz i'm in a complete good mood. My darling is gg overseas with Kenny again, this happy couple..another blissful one! Been tgt for so many yrs eh, so whn wanna get married? Darling, dont worry lah Kenny will marry u de lah.. dont keep thinking tht he wont bcoz of wad he told us tht day ok!? hahas...

We were talking abt those days. The 5 of us. So happy!

A picture speaks a thousand words...

I love my darling sistas!

I was browsing thru my friendster and looking at the updates of some friends. I came across quite a number of ppl whom i knew and were alrdy a mom. WOW! Tht's quite alot knw... cool!

Anyway, back to my updates. My office is shifting from Beach Rd to Orchard Emerald. Boring! Hate to shift. Orchard Emerald sounds gd eh? Can shop during lunch or aft work right? But the office itself sucks due to the dim lightings and the environment isnt tht great! It's like so messy and we will be sharing the office with another company doing educational programme also. siansation! I SERIOUSLY WANNA STRANGLE MY BOSS FOR ALL THE SHIT WORK THEY GAVE ME AND FOR THE PEANUTS THT THEY R PAYING ME! Hmmph! *bish*

I wonder y some ppl is so "pro" in doing those things to ppl. Hmm.. maybe i am not as "gd" as them ba...after all, all this needs lotsa "practice" and "master" the skill of it i guess. The ugly of human nature!! Dont too fast set ur judgement at a person yet coz u nv knw when the same thing will happen to u ok? Please scrammmmmm! Hate to hear u ranting abt ur life...stupid! What's so gd and proud of it?

Have to use this kinda way to fa xie! BOO!

Shimin's ROM this sat! This week is a busy week...stupid boss! stupid workshop! stupid seminars! stupid shifting of office!

Wait for my updates sooooonn! ^.^

This 2 Gucci baggie will be my 2007 resolution!!

I will wanna have 1 paid by myself & the other one maybe as my 21st bday gift from my mama :)