Saturday, August 21, 2010
What a Saturday afternoon...
I'm so bored on a Saturday like this. I seriously dont like this kind of feeling at all, dont know what should I do later?
Friday, August 13, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
My Vacation
Taking a break, hoping that I will feel much better after resting and away from work & the ppl there but I don't feel good. It must be that reason, which takes me forever to comprehend.
Of all times, it just strike at the wrong time. It affected me a great deal, like never before. Maybe it happened before, but I thought that nightmare is already over.
I felt so helpless. The feeling is back, it's been a long time since I last felt like this.
It suck.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
I feel like giving up...
It's FINALLY August! I still have like 5 more mths to "change away my current job" day.
I tried recalling how I used to work here with all the drive and heart but it seems to change drastically after those mindsets and disputes over who is handling which account(s). All the statement made and all the perceptions build inside one's mind, I dont know how long more can I take to endure these ppl.
Not saying that I'm super great now and I'm super capable that's why I made such negative comments BUT it is really what's happening this yr. I can say, this yr isnt a good and smooth yr for me. I am not sure about the rest of the "tigers" but I just feel, it's seriously not easy working ppl. I didnt really go think about it when I just started work, probably bcos I've always been in a small firm and not exposed to work with ppl whom are older than me.
I just find it hard to accept in the very 1st place, why these ppl always like to make things difficult and so hard to work with? I guess, this is human management. It's fucking tough, esp. working with ppl whom they think they are bosses themselves (think so highly & impt. of themselves), not willing to help the juniors and seriously no brain (no logical sense). Not bcos I am very good myself that's why I criticize them but to be frank, this is the culture here.
If I am a contented and everyday just do my work kind of person, I probably can survive over here (just like my colleague Shina). Unfortunately, I am not. I expect a lot more from here, the things I do, the progress and most importantly the prospect or opportunity over here. I dont wanna waste 2 yrs here and still a junior learning paperwork, purchasing, liaising etc. It's waste of time to me.
I guess, I finally came to realise one thing - trust no one except for yourself. Maybe I am naive and still thought that in this world there will be ppl who is sincere and willing to teach you, guide you or give you the opportunity. Yes there are, but limited (limited as in they will only do that to a certain extend).
人不为己，天诛地灭。
Superiors choose the ppl they want to teach and "promote" base on their r/s with them. If you are someone they dont as fancy as the other one, that means even how capable you are but your progress over there will only be stagnant, not going anywhere. Whereas, the not so capable one (but very 听话) will promote/progress from there even though there is a limit to his/her capabilities.
I thought I need a better pay job with better prospect. 2011, please come faster!
I tried recalling how I used to work here with all the drive and heart but it seems to change drastically after those mindsets and disputes over who is handling which account(s). All the statement made and all the perceptions build inside one's mind, I dont know how long more can I take to endure these ppl.
Not saying that I'm super great now and I'm super capable that's why I made such negative comments BUT it is really what's happening this yr. I can say, this yr isnt a good and smooth yr for me. I am not sure about the rest of the "tigers" but I just feel, it's seriously not easy working ppl. I didnt really go think about it when I just started work, probably bcos I've always been in a small firm and not exposed to work with ppl whom are older than me.
I just find it hard to accept in the very 1st place, why these ppl always like to make things difficult and so hard to work with? I guess, this is human management. It's fucking tough, esp. working with ppl whom they think they are bosses themselves (think so highly & impt. of themselves), not willing to help the juniors and seriously no brain (no logical sense). Not bcos I am very good myself that's why I criticize them but to be frank, this is the culture here.
If I am a contented and everyday just do my work kind of person, I probably can survive over here (just like my colleague Shina). Unfortunately, I am not. I expect a lot more from here, the things I do, the progress and most importantly the prospect or opportunity over here. I dont wanna waste 2 yrs here and still a junior learning paperwork, purchasing, liaising etc. It's waste of time to me.
I guess, I finally came to realise one thing - trust no one except for yourself. Maybe I am naive and still thought that in this world there will be ppl who is sincere and willing to teach you, guide you or give you the opportunity. Yes there are, but limited (limited as in they will only do that to a certain extend).
人不为己，天诛地灭。
Superiors choose the ppl they want to teach and "promote" base on their r/s with them. If you are someone they dont as fancy as the other one, that means even how capable you are but your progress over there will only be stagnant, not going anywhere. Whereas, the not so capable one (but very 听话) will promote/progress from there even though there is a limit to his/her capabilities.
I thought I need a better pay job with better prospect. 2011, please come faster!
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