Saying Goodbye...

Finally handed in my resignation letter today.....

In fact I really cant bear to leave here cos Ive made alot of good friends here. Sad to say, we'll part one day just tht Ive never expected it to be so damn fast. I thought I cld pull thru' this, but it turns out the opposite. Nevertheless, Im still happy tht Ive known them. I rem passing a remark to my colleagues saying "guess this yr's bday I cant celebrate here with you ppl alrdy.." and one of my colleague reacted rather agitated "you can always call us out to your bday wad.." I felt very happy tht they actually do care so much for me and tht really shows hw gd we're.

Ive not really worked in a company with so many ppl of my age. I really click so well with thm and I didnt expected to click so well with one of my female colleague, Michelle too. We can laugh like hell for almost everything. Im happy for her tht she've finally found wad she likes to do and is able to fulfill her dream. As for me, I will still be looking out for events job but I want no proposals can? I really suck at tht. lol.

My company in fact is like a family, auntie Doris is always like a mom who will tell me not to drink cold drinks in the morning, who will be so concern abt me just like my mom. She heard tht I'll be leaving and we hug goodbye, I fight back my tears cos I really will miss her and miss thm.

Bid goodbye...

The superior...

I honestly, seriously, definitely cannot communicate with you.

We just dont click at all. I cant stay there anymore longer. I cant stand you anymore longer. What is fucking wrong is, Im feeling extremely awful of the way you re. The unwanted looks and attitude frm you. I find it so hard, even just breathing the same air with you at the same place. Im sorry but I can only pretend I dont knw you or didnt see you even if I did. I dont hate you but I defnly hate your favouratism. I love what Im doing but I knw this cant continue anymore longer. Cant anymore.

Insignificant, you made me feel. Incompetent, you made me feel. Inferior, you made me feel. I wanted to try, I wanted to improve, I wanted to prove you wrong but I didnt even have the minimal trust and respect frm you. It ended up, I did nth. I tried so hard to show you but each time it just screwed up bigtime. Worse, whn I finally got the chance to do it (even for the simplest thing), it just didnt came out right and it wasnt what you want. It doesnt even please you for a single bit.

I even tried to break the ice but you simply ignore me for good. Thanks for that anyway. I keep telling myself this is the place to learn the things I love but I just cant carry on cos there is completely nth for me to learn frm you. I shld be doing wad I shld but everyday Im not. You did all tht for me, once and for all. You stepped so hard and long on my pride, telling me hw capable I am by doing only peanut stuffs.

I was left stranded as if like a stray cat begging for food. Everytime whn smtg is given to me frm you, I always tell myself to do it good, do it right just becos I wanted so hard to prove to you I AM useful for the least bit. However, I doubt you think so. Asking myself if I shld, if I shldnt a million times. You made my decision for me.

Leave, I will.