Feeling blue..

Been some time since i last posted something here... Recently, have been facing lots of ups & dwns. Sometimes i wonder if it's only a dream, everything will be so good. It's just like sitting on an emotional roller-coaster, bringing me to its climax & eventually come to a stop. Nothing is long-lasting for me, esp the happiness i've always longed for. I really cant figure out what went wrong for me. Why all this is happening again & again? When is it gonna stop? Life shld be optimistic as life itself is sad enuff but how to stay optimistic when nothing good happens? Yes, i'm very negative...bcoz of all this unhappiness! I really hope to get out of all this ASAP! Hope after my 21st Birthday, it will bring me more luck & happiness for my strength to carry on my path........