My Tranquility

What a Saturday afternoon...

2010-08-21T17:27:00.002+08:00

I'm so bored on a Saturday like this. I seriously dont like this kind of feeling at all, dont know what should I do later?

12th August 2010

2010-08-13T17:04:00.007+08:00

HAPPY 24TH TO ME! :)

My Vacation

2010-08-11T13:07:00.002+08:00

Taking a break, hoping that I will feel much better after resting and away from work & the ppl there but I don't feel good. It must be that reason, which takes me forever to comprehend.

Of all times, it just strike at the wrong time. It affected me a great deal, like never before. Maybe it happened before, but I thought that nightmare is already over.

I felt so helpless. The feeling is back, it's been a long time since I last felt like this.

It suck.

My 24th..

2010-08-09T20:59:00.002+08:00

Thanks all for making it happen :)

Why do i feel it?

2010-08-09T20:51:00.001+08:00

I am so moodless...

I feel like giving up...

2010-08-05T09:24:00.003+08:00

It's FINALLY August! I still have like 5 more mths to "change away my current job" day.

I tried recalling how I used to work here with all the drive and heart but it seems to change drastically after those mindsets and disputes over who is handling which account(s). All the statement made and all the perceptions build inside one's mind, I dont know how long more can I take to endure these ppl.

Not saying that I'm super great now and I'm super capable that's why I made such negative comments BUT it is really what's happening this yr. I can say, this yr isnt a good and smooth yr for me. I am not sure about the rest of the "tigers" but I just feel, it's seriously not easy working ppl. I didnt really go think about it when I just started work, probably bcos I've always been in a small firm and not exposed to work with ppl whom are older than me.

I just find it hard to accept in the very 1st place, why these ppl always like to make things difficult and so hard to work with? I guess, this is human management. It's fucking tough, esp. working with ppl whom they think they are bosses themselves (think so highly & impt. of themselves), not willing to help the juniors and seriously no brain (no logical sense). Not bcos I am very good myself that's why I criticize them but to be frank, this is the culture here.

If I am a contented and everyday just do my work kind of person, I probably can survive over here (just like my colleague Shina). Unfortunately, I am not. I expect a lot more from here, the things I do, the progress and most importantly the prospect or opportunity over here. I dont wanna waste 2 yrs here and still a junior learning paperwork, purchasing, liaising etc. It's waste of time to me.

I guess, I finally came to realise one thing - trust no one except for yourself. Maybe I am naive and still thought that in this world there will be ppl who is sincere and willing to teach you, guide you or give you the opportunity. Yes there are, but limited (limited as in they will only do that to a certain extend).

人不为己，天诛地灭。

Superiors choose the ppl they want to teach and "promote" base on their r/s with them. If you are someone they dont as fancy as the other one, that means even how capable you are but your progress over there will only be stagnant, not going anywhere. Whereas, the not so capable one (but very 听话) will promote/progress from there even though there is a limit to his/her capabilities.

I thought I need a better pay job with better prospect. 2011, please come faster!

I want!

2010-07-26T22:05:00.002+08:00

Car car car car car car car car car car car car car car car car car car!!

Just the usual Sunday night...

2010-07-25T19:39:00.004+08:00

July is slowing come to an end. Soon, my birthday will be approaching and I wonder what can I do for my bday? I cant wait for my long "holiday"; I will be taking leave during my bday week. Happy! :D

I have been comtemplating if I should switch job lately and finally come to a final decision that I really have to go. I just wanna pursue in something that can give me the sense of satisfaction & challenge in whatever I am doing. I reckon my current job is rather stagnant and what makes me make up my mind is bcos of my immediate boss. I understand that she has no sufficient management skills yet and my colleague & I are the 1st batch of subordinates under her care.

I just felt very outcasted & insignificant. We have too many unpleasant disputes already and I am seriously not a "yes man" hence it makes it rather hard to work tgt with her. I just hope after my departure in this company, she will know how to manage the next girl that comes along. I will be super please to give her my feedback towards her managing skills but only when I tender my resignation letter. Being my immediate boss, she is still a woman afterall. Trying to be very objective but still emotional lah. Hard to change, that's y men & women are different.

I just cant bring myself to bootlick her like how my colleague always does. "Oh I need to check with my SUPERIOR", "Dear Superior, just to inform you ........" gosh I super cannot take it man! LOL. Even though everywhere is bound to have such ppl but I still think I wld prefer working alone than in a team. I never like to be in a team or working as a team. That's when all the favoritism comes in. I am someone who cannot stand such bias acts so I doubt I can work in a team.

Lately the accounts that I am handling is rather quiet and I hope that it will continue to be quiet till end of the yr.

Anyway, just last Sunday, I went to do my hair. Initially wanted to to soft rebonding (not those very straight kind; natural) but somehow got convinced to do Spa Rebonding (I didnt even ask what's the diff in result) which has more treatment in it. End up, the result is super straight and I seriously cannot take it. Sigh~ what to do? Blame myself for not being firm on my decision. I spend $250 (include a speedy treatment for the roots) in total but I guess 一分钱，一分货 my hair is indeed very good. No matter how I tie my hair and let it down, there are no obvious lines at all and even there is a slight line, it will be gone after awhile. Guess that's y the kind of $.

Baby Kariel is 9 mths old and she is indeed a joy! Always happy to have her in our place even so that I have to babysit her. She is such a darling, always like to pretend to cry wanting ppl to carry her. 4 more mths and my 2nd niece Kayleigh will be joining our family, cant wait! ^.^

My wisdom tooth is growing out abnormally and it hurts like shit! Got to visit dentist soon, sian. Got to spend $ again. Last year and this year is a super "spend-$-and-see-doc" year.

Till then....

Gain some, lose some.

2010-06-27T22:59:00.002+08:00

In life, you always gain some and lose some. It's all about how much you want to lose and often the choice made is not at all easy.

I just wonder at times when I have to come up with a decision, I often cannot be firm with what I really want. I just think too much and this is really a freaking bad habit.

Blame it on the bloody war between the heart and mind. It sucks.

What do I really want in life? Am I happy with what I have now or I'm just resting in my comfort zone refusing to move on?

Last Fri I was rather unhappy with my superior. I just felt so helpless cos she is my immediate boss so she will have all say in who is handling which account. What pissed me off the most is she mentioned about my the other working colleague, that she never question her why is she doing this or that (but I did). I am never a "yes man" lor.

I got very upset with her trying to pull a fuss one, just bcos she is very good at defending or finding good "reasons" to rebuke on me. Siannn.

I need a break! I thought maybe I should look for another better pay job? I was thinking if I should try doing sales or industry sales? I just wanna make more money and I think sales is the only high pay job I can think of now. I'm still thinking...

Should I?

Baby Kariel's growing up!

2010-06-27T22:39:00.003+08:00

Looking at her innocent smile melts my heart and brightens up my everyday.

Love her so much, baby Kariel..

Rotting Blog....

2010-05-06T15:22:00.002+08:00

It's been months since I last update, maybe there is nothing much for me to update lately.

Life is as usual, nothing fantastic to blog about. Celebrated Serene's 24th not long ago, it was a nice catch up. Hope my life will be more colorful, wonder wad happened....

I'm off for a short break~

Growing up day by day...

2010-02-28T18:55:00.002+08:00

Seeing my precious niece growing up healthy day by day really excites me a great deal! She came to my plc ytd and I baby sit her for a few hrs. Wow, she has grown much longer, heavier & more talkative compared to the above pictures. Will try to take her pics when i get to see her again.

Miss her so much! *hugs*

Baby Niece, my darling!

2009-12-15T21:55:00.002+08:00

Frustrated

2009-12-15T21:35:00.003+08:00

If only life is alot more simpler and beautiful....

Sometimes can't help but to feel that way.

Life and humans are always complex and doubtful.

Just dunno why, I am not happy. Maybe I know why, but I dont wish to know why.

What is what? I hate it. Just why can't mine be much better, not the best but just better.

I am tired of accepting whatever I don't wish to accept.

It just suck!

Thailand - Nov 09

2009-12-07T22:45:00.006+08:00

Well spent with my love ones... =)

Anticipating

2009-11-19T20:11:00.002+08:00

Been feeling very slpy the whole week.

Looking forward to my Thailand trip next week with my loved ones. It has been a while since we spend time tgt and make time to go for a short holiday trip. Cant wait to be away from my work and cant wait to leave my hometown cos Spore has no more places for me to go.

My niece is coming to a mth this Sunday and I am so excited to see her! I cant wait to hold her in my arms. Must be vert soft and she defnly smells like heaven. Babies are really so tender and cute! She will be the 1st I carry. keke.

Went to John Little sales today and bought myself an exfoliating body scrub (oatmeal & shea butter), wonder if the result will be good.

I haven been blogging lately, very lazy indeed. Everyday has been facing the damn bloody computer, didnt feel like doing the same at home. I would prefer to have some private time alone doing other stuffs.

I really feel that life is ever changing, the different stages of life brings different lifestyles. I was in deep thoughts about how the hell my life change drastically esp this year. Life without much partying, drinking or nightlife is boring in a way but I do feel reluctant to go out most of the time. It could be myself being very lazy or maybe I had enough of these nightlife. I have been staying at home on weekends pretty much often.

Unless I need to get something, otherwise I will be lazing at home and catch nice shows or even naps. That explains why I am so looking forward to travel cos I really hope I can explore other places and that gives me a new experience.

Christmas is approaching soon and I have yet to make any plans for that. I reckon nothing much to do or nice places to go. I saw the decorations at Orchard area, fantastic!

Work has been rather stagnant, except for my boss's change of habits. He practically smokes inside our little office and choke us with those stinky ciggarette smell. Imagine, air-con area (a small area though) is all filled with the ciggies smell. It reminds me of those time when I worked in Dungeon. Suffocated, disturbing and extremely smelly. It's the after-smell that I hate.

My immediate boss is doing my appraisal for this year and this is the 1st appraisal I have. Wonder how is my performance over here and what is her advice on my work performance??

I heard we will all be taking our AWS by Dec. Hooray~ What should I do with the $$? tsk tsk~

Gonna try out my body scrub....till then!

Life is Fragile

2009-10-29T23:23:00.002+08:00

All of us went to visit my uncle with a heavy heart...

I just saw him 2 weeks ago, healthy and jovial as usual but the last I heard of him, he was hospitalized. He was rushed to the hospital, in ICU.

We are all so worried about him, tears filled all our eyes. Why him? He is still unconscious.

I pray hard for you to regain consciousness and please be strong, dont ever give up!

We will wait for you to recover and be ur usual self once again.

May God's prayers wake u up and quickly come back to us soon.

Miss u....

Unpredictable me

2009-10-19T22:46:00.002+08:00

Lately, I havent been feeling in the right state of mood. My mind is not functioning properly too. Sigh~

I wonder wad is wrong with myself. I just feel lethargic and practically no interest in all the things ard me. Maybe I am no good at handling trivial matters at work, I just cannot draw the clear thin line between rational, objective and emotions.

I just lost the drive I have all these months. Sometimes, I really do feel unpredictable about myself and the mood I have inside me. Sometimes, I just feel so suffocated by my surroundings. I cant "breathe" and I just cant handle my emotions. I wonder why cant I hold the emotions within myself?

I guess I have been reading way too much in ppl's thoughts or words, leading to negative thoughts and actions. In split seconds, my mood just switched completely. Sigh.

Am I sick or what? Why do I feel so cranky most of the times?

What can I do to ease all this unnecessary tension sitting inside me?

Weekend Rendezvous' at Sentosa Underwater World

2009-10-19T22:06:00.007+08:00

It's been many yrs since I last went to Sentosa Underwater World. It's great! Though it's kind of crowded as it is a PH, I still enjoy myself very much.

I seldom go out on a Sat noon, will usually laze at home.

Really appreciate him for keeping me accompany on a Sat noon like this. It's been a while since I get to go out like this. :)

Weekend well spent!

Raye's "Sweet 16" at Le Bar

2009-10-19T21:35:00.006+08:00

Was invited by the bday boy to his "Sweet 16" partae last Sat. It was a blast of cos as it is packed with sooo~ many of his friends. Luckily I was accompanied by my bf, otherwise I reckon I will be left stranded alone somewhere most of the time while my best friend is busy entertaining her bf's friends (also to take care of him in case he got too high & drunk).

We didnt really took alot of pictures that night, only managed to capture a few over here. Glad that at least I've got the chance to sing. Tee hee~

Here he goes again.

2009-10-05T22:31:00.005+08:00

We can never have a peace of mind!

I just dont get it why do such irresponsible man exist at all? Call yourself a man?!

Since young, what I heard of you is nothing but trouble. You caused the trouble but others clear the bloody shit for you!

All these years, what do you live for? What have you lived for? What role have you played? What have you acheived? What have you earned?

YOU HAVE NEVER DONE YOUR PART!!!

You contributed nothing but trouble. Trouble that implicates the whole of us. Trouble that gives the one you vow to take care of disappointment after disappointments.

You are nothing but a greedy pig. All you want is greed and lust! The sight of you really irks me to the core.

You have never in my life set a good example. You really dont worth my respect! You are just nothing but a loser cos for all the decades you have lived, you lived in vain!

You practically have no sense of wisdom! I dont even feel the least sympathy I thought I wld felt. You dont learn at all! You never learn from all the past mistakes at all!

YOU NEVER REPENT!!!

What a joke! You are indeed a laughing stock.

When will you ever come to your senses?

Please, just go away. No one needs you and it doesnt make any difference to us anymore. You have lost it long ago.

Now, I'm even sure that you are better off a nobody to me.

I rest my case.

Sunday again?

2009-10-04T15:24:00.004+08:00

Been wanting to watch Supernatural Season 4 since 9835962mths ago. My boss said that he will lend me his DVDs but till now he hasnt. He must have forgotten abt it.

I tried to youtube this show but it kinda pissed me off as all the episodes are not complete or rather tht particular episode I wanted to watch is somehow an introduction only?

I am so lazy to google it. Sigh, maybe I shd get it myself. That's the problem of waiting for ppl to lend me. I rather have it myself.

It's a Sunday again. Gosh, the days just passed like there's no tmr? Scary isnt it? I'm kinda bored you see. Thr's practically no one at home (besides my granny & maid). My siblings are always out and all the weekends they are yet to be seen at home. My sis worse, the entire week for consequtive weeks. I guess tht's normal for her age?

I cant wait for my holiday trip in Nov, still a long way to go though. Just thought that a break will be good. My superior is taking her break in Nov & Dec too. At least a week long. I doubt I can take a week break as my earned leave doesnt permit me.

This weekend is a "sleeping" week for me. Been so tired and I dreamt non-stop. -_-"

I really wonder what can we do here in Spore? I somehow got quite bored over here. Staying at home and going out seems no diff for me. Boring~ Sometimes, I wld have little weird feelings running inside me. Sigh, I dont really like it.

It's been very long since I last went to Vivo City. Still remember I used to go there quite often during the weekends noon.

I wld really loved to travel constantly cos I need some new environment to perk me up, I'm dying....

Frankly, growing up is a detestable thing. If I'm still a kid, how nice will it be? Nth to worry about and all I know is to play. Little things will cheer me up or I get easily contented with small little presents. I still rem, all my pressies or toys are from my mom. Only her, will buy me toys, new shoes and new school bag.

Oh ya, I've finally gotten rid of those sticks and tht pleases my mom. Goes the same to me too. I wonder how cld I have done it? Amazingly unbelievable :)

I seriously do not know what shd I do now? Watch tv? Google for shows to watch? Laze ard? Argh~ wadever.

喜事

2009-09-28T21:13:00.006+08:00

Solemnisation for the newly wed couple
Me, jie & Xiu

Me, sis, Yinhua, jie, aunt & Xiu

Sumptous lunch @ Peony Jade restaurant

Cousins lovin'

Another member in my family is finally tying the knot after being tgt for like 4 or 5yrs? Really happy for them and sincerely wish them 白头到老, 早生贵子!

:)

Time flies

2009-09-27T19:51:00.002+08:00

I really cant believe how time flies...

It's gonna be October soon and this marks the end of year approaching. So scary!

My baby niece Kariel, is soon coming out to see the world and everyone of us is filled with anticipation and excitement of this new member! Lucky her, to be born in Spore and to this family. She is sure to be dote on and pampered like a princess as she is the 1st baby among the cousins.

Next year, she is gonna call me "yi-yi" and I seriously feel so weird abt it but somehow will still feel happy.

I've been eating alot lately :( just cant help with my itchy mouth la. Not so much of snacking but good food or fatty food?

Anyway, Oct & Nov is gonna be very busy for me. Many big projects are coming in and we are shortage of manpower. Overwhelm with jobs now.

Hope we can tide through this period.

Till then..

JB on a Friday evening.

2009-09-26T16:05:00.009+08:00

Went in to JB ytd evening to get some nice & cheap mooncakes. Honestly, JB mooncakes are really cheaper than spore's. I heard from my cousin that durian ping pi cost $80 for a box here in spore but I manage to get 2pcs of durian ping pi at ringgit $20 only?

We also bought a box of those normal mooncakes of pandan flavour and the lotus one. I'm not a big fan of mooncakes though, but tried their mooncakes ytd and it is not too bad afterall.

I bought a pair of shoes at Vincci and we head for seafood at Skudai. The place is very run down with hand-build houses with lotsa big fat lizards crawling all over those houses. Omg!

The place we dine is somewhat like a concrete kelong but the tide is low ytd. We had pepper crab, drunkard prawn, kangkong & ostrich meat. Well, all I can say is the food there is so-so only but of cos for the kinda $ u pay, dont expect 5 star food lah. Altogether, we spend like ringgit $74 for our dinner. So it's about S$35+? Cheap.

Frankly, I really dont dare to stay in JB till too late cos I think it is not very safe there. The roads are all so dark. Spore & JB is jus a custom away but the difference is like heaven and earth.

Singapore is still the best! :)

s t e p h & v i n z

2009-09-22T23:19:00.014+08:00

The gf and bf

Smooch..

Finally outta "kampong"

Me & him

Le Bar with my bestie

我爱你...

Hold on to my hands & never let go...

The man I love. :)

Overloaded

2009-08-20T20:41:00.004+08:00

Busy me.

Lots of new enquiries. Costings after costings. Damn, I'm so stressed up. The cargo net saga w my customer is driving me nuts. She is really a numb skull at times but I've learn to be objective and handle it professionally not personally. It's a gd way to build up my self confidence and of cos my customer relation.

I hope I can tide through this tough phase. It's a good training for me though. This week is a hectic week, my superior is on MC for 4days. Boss is away for business trip. My dear colleague is busy too but glad tt she is helping me out.

He is away too, business trip. Missed him.

I've been hogging my pc the whole night catching my drama series again. Saving money lah. I ve been splurging lately and adding to my credit card burden. I took up a package for body contouring. Felt tht my body is slowly unknowingly getting out of shape and finally I'm back to my jog last sun after UTI.

I guess all my hard earned money has all contributed to my facial sessions & products, my massage, my tht "body contouring" package. I must really start keeping up cos age is also catching up. 23 might seem young but it's nv too late to start young.

I'm still working right now..tired!

Till then....

Happy 23rd!

2009-08-20T19:58:00.004+08:00

Tulips I love, from the one I love.

My Tiramisu cake

My 10 yrs of friendship & still counting..

My full strength, friends forever.

My pink cake from my Planning team

Had my simple but heartwarming bday celebration with my loved ones last week. Really appreciate their thoughts and presence.

Hope all my beloved friends & family are blessed with all the good things and many luck!

Love lots! :)

MIA

2009-07-27T23:26:00.002+08:00

I wonder what happened to my blog template. It's all in a mess and all my settings gone haywire. Now, I cant even access to my blog template. Damn it!

Now got to re-do my whole blog. Sian. Please tag me ur blog link if u happen to see this cos all my bloggies are gone.

Thanks..

Boozing the night away...

2009-07-26T17:35:00.004+08:00

Met up with Valerie ytd. It was a nice catch up. I was surprised by him showing up beside me. I'm happy to see him esp on a saturday night like this. Bec & Raye joined us too. It was a great night cos I was high & of cos end up drunk.

I woke up w a bruise on my index finger. I cant rem hw i got it. He reminded me that my dearest fren hit my index finger by accident while we are playing the dice. I still tot I bite my finger. LOL

Love my silly bestie & my darling bf.

Thanks for taking care of this drunkard gf of urs. Poor you, gotta stop by the road just for me, gotta piggy back me holding my heels & bag and carrying me to my bed...I love you! =)

Infected.

2009-07-20T23:16:00.003+08:00

Went to CGH see a doctor this noon, there are so many ppl waiting for consultation too.

I waited abt 4hrs bfore it's my turn. Doc told me to get my urine for test cos I have symptons related to UTI instead of appendicitis. I waited with my mom for another 1hr for the test report and it's confirmed that I got this mild Urinary Tract Infection.

Heard from doc tht is bcos I hold my urine for too long or I didnt drink enuff water and this can lead to kidney problems (e.g stones in kidney?). No wonder my right back waist hurts too, tht is whr my kidney is.

Lucky this time is a mild infection, my WBC (white blood cells) found in my urine are slightly higher than usual.

I was given 3days MC for this and not to mention those anti-biotics, inflammation pills etc. Now I ve to drown myself with plenty of water and medicine too. Sian.

If I still feel the discomfort after a week's medication, I will have to do a scan. Hope I will get well soon....

Bothered.

2009-07-19T19:14:00.004+08:00

Since ytd, been feeling this disturbing pain on the right side of my stomach after my dinner. So worried it is appendicitis. Shall visit the doctor tmr if the pain still persists.

Sian...

Lately......

2009-07-13T23:06:00.004+08:00

It's been super long since I last blogged...

Life is fine and work is as usual, with lots of ups & downs. Been working here for 6 mths and I seriously hope that there will be opportunity to progress over here. I guess me and my dear colleague over here has a love & hate r/s. Lol.

Btw, I have just got rid of my 5 yrs old laggy, no sound & poor graphics pc. My new pc now is fast and the monitor itself is as good as a LCD TV. I love it!!!

I got my back muscle strained. I wonder wad happened. I started my jog 2 weeks ago, pretty tiring though. Lucky I am still able to make it back. hahas.

I should be on MC soon. Need to see a doc, this aching pain dont seem to go away.

Till then...

Taiwan, I love...

2009-05-04T20:27:00.010+08:00

Determined.

2009-03-09T23:14:00.003+08:00

Yes, I am going to quit smoking.

I am cutting down on the sticks.

I will, I am.

I dont wanna look old, haggard and dull when my age starts to catch up.

Damn.

Bliss.

2009-02-26T20:35:00.003+08:00

I love my job, I am really enjoying every single bit. *amazing!

Been rather tired. Hell busy, but I like.

More shoppings plsss..I seriously need.

I've been missing clubs lately. Need to booze!

Have a little faith in me..

2009-02-12T19:10:00.002+08:00

Valentine's day is coming....

How're the couples gg to celebrate this special day? LOL...for me, if u meet the right person with the right kind of feel, everyday is a valentine's day to me.

Recently, many many things happened and I was really overwhelmed with confusion. I got seriously upset and it's affecting me a big deal. I ask myself:"why do things turn out this sour and bad?" It is all destined, I've always believe.

I am really happy with my life now, not that I am heartless over my 2 over yrs r.s but I really thought deep abt it and I realise that sometimes there is really at a "point of no return". I really have to let it go even though it pains me to.

U seriously never know what might happen next. I am really looking forward to a better future. My road of advancement in my current company, my better man, my car etc..

Hope for better days...

Pulling myself together.

2009-02-03T22:32:00.003+08:00

Working has occupied most of my time. I hardly have my own privacy and time at home. Work is good so far. A very nice environment to be in, especially having nice colleagues who make u feel like a family. I'm glad tht I've found a right place to fit in.

I sometimes wonder y humans r so self-contradicting. Humans - when u have it, u discredit it and when u lose it, u yearn for it. How complicated uh? I feel so bad to be the one who cant reciprocate my love or care to the one who really love and care for me. I am in a lost myself. I've lost my sense of direction and basically I'm living each day for the moment. I dare not think about the future or who I might meet in time to come.

I reckon tht I just need more time to be alone, more time to reflect on myself. I just cant bring myself to accept another man yet. I cant love anyone yet, at least for now. Happiness is transient. I honestly very not used to my life now. Not used to being without a heart to love.

I am just so tired of everything......

CNY Sisters gathering!

2009-02-03T20:49:00.004+08:00

We had our CNY gathering at Bec's place last sat. It was a hearty meet up! I really missed my girls so much. We went to sing aft tht.

Went Ktv pub with Bec and Corr aft our singing session. Got high on liquor tht night. It was fun though! Hope to meet up soon. Corrine cant open her eyes big whn she took picture that explains y she dont dare to look into the camera. hahas~

Had a great night!

CNY 2009

2009-01-30T01:20:00.003+08:00

Had a different CNY this year...maybe it's bcos I'm SINGLE this year. lol. Well, it's a gd thing, I suppose. I went to D's house on the 1st day and D's family is really BIG. So many ppl till I really cannot remember who is who. Collected a total of 16 Ang Baos somemore. tee hee~ I think this year, Ive collected the most ang baos out of so many yrs but it doesnt imply tht it's the most $ of the yrs.

Unfortunately, I caught flu when I reached jie's hse. Damn. Cant stop sneezing! Didnt really take a lot of pictures this year. Kinda upset though. My uncles n aunts knew abt my break up, they didnt really ask much cos my jie alrdy told them not to. Well, I expected my cuzzies to ask cos we're very close. It's nthg glorious but still I am strong to face it.

It's been close to a mth since the betrayal. I still think abt it on n off, cant be helped. God is fair to me, at least. He led me to the truth, though it is painful but God gave me a bonus in return. I lost smt n gain smt. I really wish him well, cos I knw good things wont be gg in his way for long. I really wanna knw how long will it last. What goes ard comes ard. I always believe ppl who do bad stuffs wont come to a gd ending.

I'm starting work tmr. GREAT! A week just flew by like tht. So fast! I really cant slack for long otherwise I will feel so lazy. I didnt really gamble tis yr - as usual. I dont have the luck and Ive resign my fate to it. Guess tmr will be a busy day cos a project is coming up.

Tmr is Friday! Zouk again...lol

Friends I love...

2009-01-25T17:16:00.005+08:00

Neighbour I missed!

Gfs I love <3

It's been a while since I last saw you...

Bon Voyage my friend!

Hope everything turns well in New Zealand for you and come back soon :)

Enjoying Roland's company...

Me & Dickson

Corrine the "tau nie" lol

The more we Zouk tgt!

2009-01-14T15:38:00.002+08:00

Wonderful night with wonderful people!

Lust = Love?

2009-01-11T17:08:00.005+08:00

The pain is excruciating!

I never thought that being cheated is such a painful thing to accept, especially being betrayed by the one whom u've been loving all the while. Love is such a facade, deception. Love sucks, BIG TIME! Loving the wrong person is even worse.

How the hell am I going to tide through this period?

I seriously dont knw. I dont wanna even go think abt it. I m drained. I dread gg back to a world full of lust, alcohol and ciggarettes. I hate using all these to numb myself or occupy my every weekends. I am not going to like this kinda life. I prefer a laid back life but I cant anymore...

I went DF ytd. I really cant stand some random guys trying to get something out of me. It just disgust me even more. I hate this kinda stupid life where guys thought you're their prey for the night! I am so disgusted.

How to trust love again?

出卖

2009-01-11T16:24:00.003+08:00

那么多年自作聪明付出了真心

总以为换到一个公平的回应

你床边的蜷曲头发残酷地说明

缠绵的爱比不上一时的高兴

你的多情出卖我的爱情赔了我的命

我卖了一个世界却换来灰烬

你的绝情出卖所有爱情好梦一下子清醒

感情像个闹钟按一下就停

The Betrayal..

2009-01-09T17:12:00.003+08:00

Truth is out.

I am lucky, you are not.

It's finally over, I am glad.

I will be sad but I will soon be fine.

Nothing is forever, this I know.

Love is nothing but a deception.

Get over it and done with it.

My 4th day at work!

2009-01-08T09:19:00.002+08:00

I've started working this Mon 5th.

Everything is alright so far and from my place to my office is near too, I am happy. My colleagues here are so far very nice and I seriously dont feel left out esp during lunch :)

I'm seriously adapting to waking up early like 7am so I've been slping damn early every night so I wont feel sleepy the next day. Still coping well. Working in an Aviation industry seems fun and challenging. There is a lot to learn here.

It's a good start, I hope.

Hello 2009, gdbye 2008!

2009-01-01T00:35:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year!

Perfect ending?

2008-12-26T16:10:00.002+08:00

I am into those unrealistic love stories tht will never happen in this practical world. I love it as it can bring me a moment of joy and happiness, at least. I very much envied the characters in it though it might sounds facade or deluding but maybe it really does happen in real life, or not?

Well, no such thing as a perfect match. Not even a perfect love. I still yearn for it though. lol. Sounds insane? I am alrdy out of my sane world, so it doesnt really matter.

The late gift - we'll be exchanging our C'mas pressies ltr on. I bought something essential for a woman, especially when we are slowly growing more mature. I was satisfied! This yr our potluck is being called off (no one mention abt tis either) maybe bcos most of 'em are busy working.

I will be getting some stuffs ltr. I need another book - to keep me occupied. I love reading recently. Sounds hilarious uh? I wanna laugh at myself too. Seems like I am experiencing a new life. Yeah a "new" life. Something I wldnt do if I am what I used to be. I feel so homely now. Omg! Is tht a gd or bad thing?

As long as it makes me happy, who cares if it is gd or bad.

But am I happy, or not?

Merry Christmas peeps!

2008-12-24T23:25:00.003+08:00

Finally, it's Christmas again!

However, I dont feel the thrill inside me to party this night out. I cant understand why am I having this weird feeling. I dont knw why am I at home on the eve. hahs~!

Kenneth called. He is gg to Lunar, as usual. I was reluctant so I rejected his invite. Staying at home wld be better, rather. I suppose. I knw something is very wrong but I just cant seem to explain this.

Anyway, one good news - I'm no longer in the category of "jobless" slacker. teehee~! A brand new year marks a brand new hope for me. I was excited and looking forward to my 1st day - 5th Jan 09. *grin*

So far my new colleagues look fine to me. Friendly, at least. :) I've found out an easier way for me to get to work and it's more convenient for me too. A straight bus and a 10mins walk will do.

I've watched Twilight last Sunday and it was really nice! I like it~! Especially the vampire, Edward. Maybe bcos I've not read the book bfore gg to catch this show but aft reading, I do agree that alot of details are being missed out. Perhaps it is bcos of the duration of the movie. Just the "edited" Twilight movie alone takes abt 2hrs alrdy, I cant imagine if they were to film the whole book into a movie. It will be damn long. Nevertheless, the overall is satisfying just that the ending cld be ended better than just dancing at the prom romantically. lol. I didnt knw that it was the ending alrdy. hah.

I guess the CNY coming up in Jan isnt the same as bfore. Very quiet, I can say. I dont really feel it coming at all. I tot CNY just ended "not long". lol. Sounds rather idiotic eh? Honestly, I am feeling so bored of life that I really need something to charge me up.

Hoping tht 2009 will be a better year. YES, it will be! :)

Let's partae~

2008-12-23T18:24:00.005+08:00

Myself & my crazy bitch! =)

The cute Corrine :)

Finally, I set my foot in Zouk last Friday! Not a bad decision though. I went with Bec and Corrine. Had fun, of course! Been ages since I last went. Music wasnt too bad just tht champagne kinda kill me.

I do hope I will be heading there again real soon :)

New baby arrive!

2008-12-14T00:08:00.003+08:00

My friend just gave birth to her baby boy Javan ytd! So cute~! Hope she get well soon...I will visit her n her little boy soon. :)

I super hate lizards!

2008-12-11T01:22:00.003+08:00

I just had an awful encounter with a lizard in my kitchen!

WTF!

I was opening my kitchen drawer to get a fork when I heard something dropping and it somehow didnt land on me (heng~) but landed in a shallow basket (into the plastic bag) which we use to put all the rubbish (beside the kitchen basin).

At 1st I didnt knw it was a lizard till I went nearer and took a peep. I saw the lizard LOOKING AT ME and it is struggling like hell inside the plastic bag trying to get out. The sound of the plastic bag tht this lizard made creeps me out! After a few attempts, it finally get out of the basket and escaped towards my rice cooker. It really freaked me out and I am so lucky tht it didnt land on me cos I was very close to the basket. *phew!

Euuwwww~! GROSS!

Beware of "black shop"!

2008-11-26T02:38:00.005+08:00

Just to share with you an awful experience I had when I went to Far East Plaza to set my hair last Saturday evening.

Due to time constrain, my cousins and I went to the 5th level and saw this particular hair salon empty. As it is a Saturday and most of the salons are full, we went in to this shop to check out the price.

There is only one male stylist tht time and he quoted us $30 for a "normal" hairdo. If we want to half-tie our hair is $40 and $40++ to tie the whole hair up. I find it rather strange but didnt probe much. So we settled in and he called for another male stylist who went for a smoke. Both are Msians.

So 4 of us (me, my sis and another 2 cousins) sat there waiting to be served. One of my cousin and I went 1st while my sis n another cousin waited. I told tht Msian (ah beng looking) stylist wad I wanted for my hairdo (half-tie with volume and curl for the rest of my bottom hair) and he really had no skills at all. He half tie my hair with a rubber band (which I can do it myself too) and tried using hair pins to pin up my hair to make the volume but it failed.

After several attempts, he gave up. My cousin and sis who're waiting left (as they saw how badly he attempt to do my hair). Then, he tried another hairdo - plaits from the right to the left. The outcome really stunned me cos I look exactly like some moron trying to act like a primary sch girl. The whole look doesnt suit my make-up and wont go well with wad I'll be wearing that night. I dont knw if I shld laugh or cry. In the end, I gave up too!

This salon is really a con-shop, "black shop".

Later, I went to look for my sis at another salon which is MUCH BETTER and even CHEAPER! They charge only $28 for ANY hairdo be it half-tie, whole hair or wadever. I felt cheated by the 1st salon. I cant stop whining as tht Msian guy wasted my time there!!

I finally learn my lesson - when there is no one in the salon while the rest of the salons are busy, something is amiss!

LADIES! Please DO NOT patronize this saloon(unless u dont mind being cheated) - Peridot Hair Boutique tagline: we style you shine (it doesnt tally with the exact services they did) located at level 5 #05-85, near escalator. They simply treat their customers as "cai tao". Their skills DO NOT worth the price that they quote at all!!!

The msian guy who fail to do my hair gave me his namecard and his position over there is a Creative Director?!! Omg! He isnt creative at all and simple styling seems so difficult for him. He is just like an ah beng trying to be a professional hair stylist when he is actually not. I can tell that he is not focus at all and he kept talking abt soccer bets with his colleague (the other Msian guy).

The result I got for my hairdo at the other salon (Clover Hair Salon, #03-12) really satisfied me big time! The hair stylist there is meticulous and more professional. Their skills is definitely worth the price. Any styling for ONLY $28! If you happen to have a wedding to attend in town, you can set your hair at this shop.

22nd Nov - Wedding bell rings!

2008-11-26T02:04:00.007+08:00

Last Sat was my cousin's big day! Everyone in our family is very excited. The night before, I went over to her house and prepare the necessary stuffs we need to use during gate-crashing. There are games and forfeits. One of the "must do" is to eat/drink the sour, sweet, bitter and hot thing tht we gave the brothers. Fun indeed!

The next day, I woke up early like 5+ am and got myself dressed up in white before heading to her house. All the sisters arrived on time and we start to prepare ourselves for the gate-crashing. Abt 8.10am, the groom arrived and we heard them horning. My bro, being the youngest guy in the family went down with 2 oranges to help the groom - my jie fu, open the car door.

There they come and the girls standing at the gate guarding them. 1st thing to do - ask for ANG BAO lah. lol. We total got 4 red packets and the 1st game of the morning is to get the guys plan their dance steps in the given 1min using the music we played. Those who cannot coordinate well with their dance steps or their dance steps are messy will bear the forfeit tgt (needless to say, even if they r not in the wrong, we will sure find fault at them). End up, their dance steps are really damn sucks. NO CREATIVE at all man. Their "left-right, left-right" dance steps are so out of date.

Being jie-mei is really very tiring, we've to follow the bride where ever she goes and just being there. The camera man will keep taking pictures of my cousin and also the sisters. I smile till I can feel the muscle inside my face is crampy.

I simply love the night part, where the 9-course sumptous dinner will commence. My another cousin and I are in-charge of the recept. So many ppl arrived and somehow "jam" the whole cocktail area. I'm feeling very happy still. When most guests arrived, my cousin and her husband will proceed to their 1st march in. The whole ballroom is so big and grand. The stage is beautifully decorated. My cousin is so gorgeous that everyone set their eyes on this couple. Their face look so stiff while strolling in.

I can feel the happiness at tht present moment. The photo montage is just like a story book narating their story bit by bit. Impressive!

I heart all of my beloved ones!!

What are family and friends for?

2008-11-25T17:11:00.004+08:00

It's a hearty catch up with my dearest cousins weeks ago on a saturday night..I really cant remember the exact day. However, I really appreciate them to be there for me when I really needed them. *loves

We grew up together since we're very small. I hardly meet up with them as they both live in the west area. It's been so long since we last meet outside for drinks. I really enjoyed myself!

On the same night, my ex-colleagues from VS drop by and catch up with me, drinking tgt with me too. It's been months we havent see each other and it is really great seeing them again :)

I met up with another ex-colleague nt long ago too. They're all nice ppl...

What's going on?

2008-11-20T23:41:00.004+08:00

Well, it's been almost a month since I last blogged. I dont knw if my PC is screwed up or it's the blogger. This "create post" page isnt right. I cant choose my font neither can I post my pictures.

WEIRD!

Anyway, I will just blog wadever here for the time being.

Recently been rather fine. I've FINALLY started my job hunting after procastinating it for 8375929134 days/weeks/mths. Actually I cld have gt the job alrdy but I seriously cant start work immediately as I nd to attend a wedding in Msia next mth and the groom alrdy bought the ticket alrdy. Damn it! Wrong timing for me. I quite like the working environment cos it is a penthouse-type office and it is at the 23rd floor. Superb nice view!! Shall just leave it to fate...

2 more days and it's my cousin's wedding. I am alrdy getting excited nw. Though it is nt my wedding but 1st time being jie-mei sure make me feel many butterflies in my stomach. This wedding really cost me a bomb! Morning and night 2 different outfit, wad do u think? Shall upload the beautiful pictures asap and hopefully till then my blogger will be back to normal. I guess another reason for me being so excited is also bcos of the gate-crashing part. *evil laughs* The guys are in a big fix!

Chinese new year is less than 2 months away and I seriously dont feel excited at all. It is really very bored this whole year. Basically 2008 simple sucks lah. Things are not right for me this whole damn year. Just hope that it will quickly end and 2009 marks a better year (which I suppose wont make any difference base on the current economic situation). Sigh~! Money is always the main cause, ALWAYS!!

Have you ppl notice a trend nowadays? Thai disco is slowly bcoming more and more popular in spore. Many places are now having more and more Thai disco pubs, even in Boat Quay. I can simply name a few places like East Coast Resort (previous Home Ktv), Shenton way Geographer and Sabai, City Plaza etc. I've been to a few of this places and I am so stunned by the fact that now many guys often patronize there. Often, these places are with Thai girls hanging ard or some working there as dancers or wadever. Sick! I suppose more and more of this "outsiders" are slowly coming spore to earn a living and also indirectly result a growth in sporean-thai r/s. Normally, ppl or rather guys who go to this places mostly are those gangster, ah bengs. REALLY! Everynight or most of the nights, fights and blood or broken glasses are something common in this places alrdy. Damn sucks right?

Of course, I am somehow influenced by this trend bcos of my bf and the ppl he's hanging out with. I cant deny that thai liveband is really nt that bad and rather entertaining. Although you dont understand a single thing they're singing but some of em' are rather nice songs. I've saw this random guy who is attached but came to this particular thai disco pub hugging another chinese-speaking girl BEHIND HIS GF'S BACK. He knws that I recognise him and even asked my bf to tell me not to badmouth him to his gf. WTF! I've nv spoken to his gf bfore, I just saw her a few times lah but still he is just crap lah. If he is scared to be seen, then hide at home lah. He wanted me to keep quiet abt it when he can hug another girl OPENLY in a public area and can feel scared to be recognise or being spot. I really condemn such ppl.

All the best to his Gf lah. To have such a bf, I really think she sure knws wad kinda guy she is with too. I personally feel that, guys who always go to such places really not a single soul can be trusted. That's also the reason why my bf and I kept quarrelling. How I wish all this places will be banned by the government or raid by all the police and eventually business is no gd so CLOSE SHOP lah.

Now everything in spore seems right but I dont think so at all. Shall talk abt this some other time. Turning off soon, tired. I've been slping early lately. Need to wind back "my clock" to the correct timing.

Ciaoz..

Happy 22nd to you!

2008-10-30T02:14:00.011+08:00

Wonderful night spent with wonderful ppl.. *I <3 u'all

We finally decided to dine in at Sakae Sushi @ City Hall, Camwhoring while we eat...

Of course, not forgetting to take a pic of the bday girl tgt with the other pretty ones...

Our last round of food, we're trying our best to get all these in to our tummies... (we've eaten alot alrdy)

Tht big bowl of Terriyakki ramen belongs to becs, tht's wad me & serene cld help her to eat till..not bad ah, at least not so much left...but still, thanks for the treat my dear!

Aft Sakae, we decided to lay our butts in 12th Element @ BQ..yes, pubbing! Tht's the best plc we cld tot of...(see, so comfy!)

It's not tht bad actually, afterall...pubbing let us have the chance to cut the cake in a proper place and we can also camwhore (:

Me and Ru jie jie

Tht's our "supper" for the night.. lol

Becs the bday girl and me..

While waiting to cut the cake, we snap again!

Look at her playful face! Shld have make her a cake-faced tht night..hahs

Make a wish my dear :D

Her facial expression looks like she's gonna KILL the cake!

Tah dah~ the strawberry cakie! It's super duper creamy and delicious, we all love the strawberries!

My besties~!

Although there's only 4 of us to celebrate ur bday but I hope u do enjoy ur 22nd with US!!

Dearest Shannie~ haven seen her for 0183746382 days! *miss euu..

(and gambateh for ur work uh!)

Playing dice can be tht fun (of cos the company matters too)

Rebecca was there too..love her purple top!

Hanah, I knw u've gt nice dimples...

Her "last song" cos aft this song she's gg home. Can u guess wad song is she singing?

(clue: see tht screen behind?)

Becs playing game with the guy who bring us the bday cake and dedicated a bday song for her...lols

The end....

Isolation

2008-10-08T16:07:00.004+08:00

This picture is taken from my room. It's raining heavily with lightning and loud thunder. It somehow knew that I'm nt happy, tht's why it rained.

I dont feel well.

I just want to be alone.

I heart such cute dogs!

2008-10-07T04:07:00.007+08:00

The 2 little pups!

Hyper-active and loner. lol.
The active, noisy, kpo, cute lil' pup

Though he looks ugly but he is damn cute bcos of his dumbness
The loving one - my all time favourite!
Kooky and his "bell-bottom"
Ke ai~
See! He is cute isnt it?

Mother of the lil ones. (kooky's scandal)

She's camera shy leh.

More luck plsss..

2008-09-23T02:10:00.003+08:00

It's pissing me off a big deal. wtf!
My previous company still owes me my claim.

Nvm. I do hope they'll suffer a heavy loss due to the small amt of money they owe me.

Karma. I always believe.

I'm gg for an interview tmr noon. I dont knw if I'll get the job.
It's an unexpected one. I guess it'll be a whole lot different from what I used to do.

I dont knw if this is really what I want to do. Maybe I wont get the job, who knws. Shall nt say what job it is till everything is cfmed.

Shucks! I'm growing horizontally. Esp my darn tummy. Any idea hw to get rid of the tummy fats in the shortest time?

Yucks! I seriously hate it! argh~

2 more mths to my cuzzie's wed. I need to get my hair coloured and toe nails painted. I guess all my family and relatives are equally excited. Of cos, tht marks growing up.

My weekend is slowly getting not exciting anymore. Not becos I spend it with who but bcos there isnt any other nice place to go anymore.

I'm turning in, still have an interview to go tmr. Till then.....

What is LOVE?

2008-09-19T02:27:00.008+08:00

"Love is not possessive.

If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put it in your basin. However, the moonlight still shines upon you. In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person. Let him become a permanent memory in your life.

If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is. Love him for his good points and the bad. You can't wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him. If he can't change to become what you like him to be, you wont love him anymore?

When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him. You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times and not always be on the receiving end. Being away from each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat. Real love will never become hate."

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Have you ever wonder what LOVE is?

Have you ever wonder why when 2 person are in LOVE, they still quarrel?

Since 2 person are in LOVE, why is it so hard to get along and understand each other?

Does it mean that if 2 person cant get along, cant understand each other and quarrel, they dont LOVE each other?

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Time will tell...

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; happiness, sadness, knowledge, and all the others, including love.

One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help.

Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, " I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere."

Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please."
"I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."

Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now."

Then, Love saw Happiness.
Love cried out, " Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. Love began to cry.

Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder.

Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked.

Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

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Leos love to take charge and play the leading role. Sexually a Leo will go to all measures to please a partner. They want a relationship to be exciting and intense. However, as much as they need devotion, they deplore possessiveness and jealousy. A true Leo will remain faithful in a relationship, however they must have space and freedom to allow their outgoing nature to explore new adventures.

If you're looking for a generous, creative person that usually has a sunny disposition about life, you've found them. Don't forget to take into account that the Leo horoscope has the symbol of the lion for a reason. This king of the jungle, can be quite domineering at times. Nonetheless, provided with the necessities that a Leo needs, you will find an affectionate, cheerful companion that will do almost anything for you.

Perfect Partners: Aries, Sagittarius
Nearly Perfect Partners: Gemini, Libra
Not Your Destiny: Scorpio, Taurus

Do you believe in horoscope?
Well, for me...I think it can be quite accurate at times but for Scorpio not being my destiny, how true is this?

I wonder... ... ...

Randomly

2008-09-04T16:54:00.006+08:00

Have you ever wonder if dreams do somehow hint you on smtg?

It scares me sometimes and it amazes me too. I'm someone who is always dreaming about smtg when sleeping. It may be broken or mixed up, it may be vague at times too.

Do you dream very often?

Sometimes, the dream is so real that you actually can feel it. Be it in pain or wadever, it seems so real. Scary right?

I do have friends who dont get to dream at all. Of course they do lah, just that not say very frequent like me. Normally these ppl shld be in deep sleep right? I'm a light sleeper compare to Kenneth. He slps like a dead log. lol. Even the sky collaspe, I doubt he'll even realise it.

It has been raining cats and dogs these days.
I really wonder wad's wrong with the weather lately.

I was watching this channel 8 show (though I always feel tht spore dramas is a flop) ytd, the baby is really very cute lah. Only then I knw, taking care of a baby aint easy at all. Imagine: the baby pooed, peed and needed to drink milk without you realising it immediately. Crying in the middle of the night etc. It's not tht i hate kids lah, I do love kids just you must be on your toes to take care of em'. You must really commit your time.

The male lead, Adrian Pang was saying:"having a dog is much better than a baby. at least dogs they help to guard your house and will listen to you.." ---> this sentence reminds me of my best fren who hated kids to the core. hahs.

Mei Tyn is gg to be in labour in about 3months time I suppose. I feel so excited for her!!

Everyone is working EXCEPT for me!!! :(
I am so lazy! LAZY!!

Help, help, help~!!!

Time machine

2008-09-01T17:35:00.009+08:00

When I am 5yrs old

My brother and I

Our favourite toys back then At my granny house (we used to be tht close)

Griffiths Primary Sch - New member!

My siblings (I was in Pri. 2)

Primary 6

Secondary 3

After graduating from Sec 5

Last year :)

I looked thru' all my old photos and I found those tht were taken donkey years ago. It's really amazing how time can slowly change a person physically. I saw the process of growing up of me and my friends. We really changed damn alot. I really look damn ku-ku last time lah.

Anyway, weekend was great. I went to catch 4bia, a Thai horror flim. Not tht bad, just tht it's narrated in 4 different stories which kinda disappoint me. I prefered a whole story instead.

Nothing much to blog. Till then!

It's back again - my life!

2008-08-25T14:20:00.010+08:00

Our virgin date!

Me and Jenny

Crew Room - empty bottle she's holding

We finished the very-little-left-over Martell

It's a happy night with neighbour last Friday.

We had dinner tgt, went Crew Room to finish my balance and headed to DBL O =)

It's been freaking long since I last went DBL O and of cos, it's also been ages since I last clubbed. I'm damn happy can! Initially wanted to go O Bar, but I guess we were early so the music wasnt tht gd so we went to DBL O warm up 1st. The songs in DBL O are really damn OLD. Not a single new songs at all. All the songs are as old as Candy Shop, Belly Dancer, Hollaback Girl and many more old songs lah. Kinda trying very hard to 自-high so we drank shots. Hahs.

The fastest to get high, Tequila shot still the best. Eeeww~

We headed to O Bar abt 2am and it was really GREAT lah. Shld have went dwn earlier! New songs, nice songs and hip songs. Though it was crowded than DBL O but it was really much better.

Surprisingly, I saw 2 of my secondary schmates. Joo Seng and Lydia.
Lydia is the doorbitch there. Chatted with her for awhile while smking.

Aft O bar, met Rebecca awhile at Bak Kut Teh. Headed to DF with Lydia and Kenneth. Well, Fri is a night full of activities till early morn. Imagine aft DF, Ken and I went to BQ. Drink again with his friends. Last stop, Rav.

RAV SUCKS!

It's only a pathetic small club but yet the kinda money you gonna pay to get in is as if tht place is full of celeb. wth! Have to queue (whn thr's not a single soul q-ing) and the girls to get in 1st before the guys.

Very full of crap! Open 1 bottle for 4pax to get in free. WTF!

I dont see tht place so great till you need to "beg" to get in. All of us waited outside like as if the queue is so long. The staff there are like police doing spot checks. Damn turn-off lah!

It's a NO-NO place!

I wont be gg thr anymore. Not worth the money. If it's Zouk or MOS still understandable but Rav is small and it's only a normal pub-like club. Music not gd at all and the staff there are so cautious with patrons like us gg in. They clearly forgot tht we're the 消费者okay!

Btw, I guess my Melbourne trip is cancelled. Sigh~ -_-"
Dont say le. Now can only look forward to my next fateful trip.

I'm gg to work again! Hopefully. *grinz

Sleeping disorder

2008-08-22T11:10:00.003+08:00

I hardly slp.

Aft tucking in, I woke up again aft abt 3hrs,

and now..........

I'm blogging over here feeling fresh. Omg. Just exactly wad's happening to me? It's been 2days like this. I cant continue slping like a log aft I woke up randomly.

H
E
L
P
!!!

I love cooking!

2008-08-20T19:21:00.005+08:00

Cai Xin

Chicken Curry

I have the sudden urge to hands on and cook today. I went to NTUC and get the necessary ingredients for my dinner. Although this is the 3rd time I've attempt to cook chicken curry, I still love to do it once again. All bcos I really love the curry my mommy used to cook last time. The side dish will be vege and I've chosen Cai Xin. The other alternative is cabbage. My family have this habit to have a vege to go with chicken curry as the curry is rather heaty and spicy, so it'll be best if there's a vege to balance your taste buds.

Actually, it is not difficult to cook. Hmm...maybe just the preparations are abit tedious.

For cooking chicken curry, you'll need to peel the potatoes, carrots and also chop the chicken into smaller pieces. I've added carrots in it so as to add in a little sweetness to the curry and also bcos eating too many potatoes will make my tummy feel a bit tight. So carrots can help to balance it.

The serving of chicken will depend on how many ppl will be eating or the amount of curry you'll be cooking. I've always chosen half chicken (rem to get rid of the skin & check for feathers when cleaning) and sometimes add a few wings if I feel tht it is not enough. Not forgetting, the coconut milk and the chicken curry paste. It can all be found in supermarkets (e.g NTUC).

Maybe one day you shld really try cooking yourself. I love the satisfaction and of cos being a woman alrdy, I shld learn how to cook.

At least a meal tht's edible.

My next attempt will be double boiled soup - 六味汤. I love this soup since young and I will really wanna learn how to double boil this soup. It is a healthy soup. Besides that, I also wanna learn to boil soups like 黑豆汤, 花生汤 and Bak Kut Teh. It is really very nice. My mom seldom cook now except for Mondays and bcos my maid does everything, she hardly finish all the cooking herself.

I rather learn and cook it myself lah. I've always wanted to be a 女强人 who can 出的了厅堂, 进的了厨房. I wont wanna be a 黄脸婆. Seriously, a healthy brought up is really very impt. Just like my family. I sincerely thank God for giving me such a wonderful family and wonderful mommy. I've always treat her as my model to be a gd "chef".

Wait till my next cooking update on the soup. That's all for now. =D

Smiles...

2008-08-12T01:19:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!!!

22nd here I come!

2008-08-11T14:38:00.012+08:00

The Crew Room on 09.08.08

Sunflower from my beloved girls!

I really love it alot...

I've been showering the flowers with sunlight & water.

more pictures to be updated soon... =)

I had my bday pre-celebration on National day with my beloved girls. We headed to town for dinner at Spageddies and to The Crew Room aft tht. Specially booked a room for our privacy. It's a drink, drank and drunk night! I really enjoyed all of your company and thanks a million for the bday cake, presents, the sunflower and nt forgetting chipping in for the drinks too.

I always believe that you dont need many friends to make your bday celebration look grand but as long as your true friends remember you and they are there to share the joy with you, it's more than enough alrdy. I truely appreciate those who've been there on my bday for consecutive years and I really hope that for the upcoming years, we'll still be celebrating our bdays tgt! Friends forever...

I'm still a "rugby football game"

2008-08-06T01:45:00.002+08:00

Hahs. We were talking abt how girls aged and wad kinda game we belong to at different ages. Glad to knw that we're still a rugby football game now(many guys gg aft the rugby ball) and Bec was telling me seems tht as we get older, we dont really care abt bdays anymore. I find it very true! I guess few yrs dwn the road, we wont even wanna rem our bday anymore. LOL.

Our topics are very much on cars, money, sugar daddy and still....money! omfg. WHY do we have this thing called "money"? It really kills!

I tot of changing my mobile phone. I wanna get a slide one if possible but there are so many phones in the market now till I dont knw which is gd. It's hard to choose in terms of function, durability and design. It's not cheap too.

Actually now thinking back abt my bday, I think just a simple one will do. As long as all my close friends are celebrating with me, I'm contented enuff alrdy. Really dont knw whr to go, pubbing or wad? Sounds bored yeah. I thought clubbing wld be more fun, hah.

Till then :)

My 22nd years of life

2008-08-05T00:08:00.003+08:00

One more week to my birthday but I dont feel the excitement at all.

I wonder why....

Moving out

2008-07-08T23:28:00.004+08:00

It's been a week since kenneth move out of Pasir Ris. Everything is going pretty fine just tht the moving-house-syndrome kind of scares me. It's really very tedious. Although I'm nt the one who really help the most but just by helping out the least makes my whole body aches like there's no tmr. Painting of his room is a great experience but a price to pay. (tht's being all worn out...teehee~!)

Finally this tiring job is over.

Seriously, I do miss their PR's hse. In a way, I do. His new place is gd 'cept for the mosquitos, noisy dogs tht cant stop barking in the morn and messy hall but Im sure it's only for the time being. Everything will be in place in time to come. Maybe not really use to it yet, but I knw things will get better. After all, it has only been a week.

Talking about the best thing, I really love the room tht we paint. I love the vibrant colour combination. I suppose even his dogs are not use to it either but can see tht they adapt to the new environment rather fast. Good!

Next, my no-work-to-do-means-no-money days is gonna start again. I dont knw if I shld be happy or I shld be sad, coz I really dont wanna idle ard like as if money will come dropping from the sky. Sigh~! My fren kept urging me to join her in the Insurance industry but I really see no security working there. Although it seems like she's been doing very well and Ive gt no reason to reject her but the fact is, I cant over come the doubts inside me.

Went to meet my girls ytd for a great dinner at Sakae sushi. As usual, we went for a singing session and follow by mj. It's rather gd to mj sometimes. A nice catch up! :)

Saying Goodbye...

2008-06-20T19:57:00.005+08:00

Finally handed in my resignation letter today.....

In fact I really cant bear to leave here cos Ive made alot of good friends here. Sad to say, we'll part one day just tht Ive never expected it to be so damn fast. I thought I cld pull thru' this, but it turns out the opposite. Nevertheless, Im still happy tht Ive known them. I rem passing a remark to my colleagues saying "guess this yr's bday I cant celebrate here with you ppl alrdy.." and one of my colleague reacted rather agitated "you can always call us out to your bday wad.." I felt very happy tht they actually do care so much for me and tht really shows hw gd we're.

Ive not really worked in a company with so many ppl of my age. I really click so well with thm and I didnt expected to click so well with one of my female colleague, Michelle too. We can laugh like hell for almost everything. Im happy for her tht she've finally found wad she likes to do and is able to fulfill her dream. As for me, I will still be looking out for events job but I want no proposals can? I really suck at tht. lol.

My company in fact is like a family, auntie Doris is always like a mom who will tell me not to drink cold drinks in the morning, who will be so concern abt me just like my mom. She heard tht I'll be leaving and we hug goodbye, I fight back my tears cos I really will miss her and miss thm.

Bid goodbye...

The superior...

2008-06-19T20:32:00.007+08:00

I honestly, seriously, definitely cannot communicate with you.

We just dont click at all. I cant stay there anymore longer. I cant stand you anymore longer. What is fucking wrong is, Im feeling extremely awful of the way you re. The unwanted looks and attitude frm you. I find it so hard, even just breathing the same air with you at the same place. Im sorry but I can only pretend I dont knw you or didnt see you even if I did. I dont hate you but I defnly hate your favouratism. I love what Im doing but I knw this cant continue anymore longer. Cant anymore.

Insignificant, you made me feel. Incompetent, you made me feel. Inferior, you made me feel. I wanted to try, I wanted to improve, I wanted to prove you wrong but I didnt even have the minimal trust and respect frm you. It ended up, I did nth. I tried so hard to show you but each time it just screwed up bigtime. Worse, whn I finally got the chance to do it (even for the simplest thing), it just didnt came out right and it wasnt what you want. It doesnt even please you for a single bit.

I even tried to break the ice but you simply ignore me for good. Thanks for that anyway. I keep telling myself this is the place to learn the things I love but I just cant carry on cos there is completely nth for me to learn frm you. I shld be doing wad I shld but everyday Im not. You did all tht for me, once and for all. You stepped so hard and long on my pride, telling me hw capable I am by doing only peanut stuffs.

I was left stranded as if like a stray cat begging for food. Everytime whn smtg is given to me frm you, I always tell myself to do it good, do it right just becos I wanted so hard to prove to you I AM useful for the least bit. However, I doubt you think so. Asking myself if I shld, if I shldnt a million times. You made my decision for me.

Leave, I will.

Doggies fanatic

2008-05-30T17:23:00.005+08:00

Another update on my baobei~!!! Look at their innocent face...

Im loving it <3

2008-05-26T23:57:00.005+08:00

The above picture is my 2 cutest baobei, esp the one on the right! He really brightens up my day each time I see him :D *love lots

May is coming to an end.

Ive been going back to the times whn Im nt working, hogging nice TV dramas. Come to think of it, lately, Ive watched this Japan drama online. It's about a true life story about a 15yrs old sch girl. I guess many would have heard of it - One Litre of Tears. It's damn nice!! I cried a few times watching it. U wont be able to hold back ur tears if ure really paying attention to every bit of it.

U can watch it if ure free:

http://www.mysoju.com/1-litre-of-tears

Back to the city

2008-03-17T00:15:00.004+08:00

Didnt really have the time to blog, tht explains y my blog is left not updated for a mth plus. Well, it's been a real messy mth and lots of things to settle, to clarify and to re-build. Gosh! Not forgetting putting on a little weight due to supper but supper's gonna end alrdy coz I'M FINALLY GOING TO WORK!! Hurray~! "$$$"

Got this job all thanks to my beloved bestie Bec (B x3?). Owe u a treat my dear! I'll be working in an events company and my job is to manage the project assigned. It's a good start; smt i've been wanting to do. Have lots to learn and i really hope i can stay in this company for long and for good. :)

My friendster has been deleted and many things i've changed. Anyways, work is really smt new to me for nw coz i haven been working for almost 6mths..woohoo~ suddenly feel like a housewife gg back to the city - to work. Okay, i am a city girl nw not a country girl anymore. *claps

Tired everyday. I guess i must really get my arse back to work if not i will bcome more n more lazy. Time flies.....April is coming, so is my 2nd TP. Wth. Haven been gg for lessons since my last TP, rusty alrdy. Must arrange for lessons soon.

Wait for my updates soon~! gtg..

2008-02-05T20:03:00.000+08:00

Yay! CNY is just 2days away and i'm so looking forward to the day.

CNY is my favourite holiday coz i love steamboat with my family, collecting angbaos, dolling up just to look good though we're at relative's place.

Tis yr's CNY, i'll also be meeting my sistas at my place for CNY gathering, steamboat and of coz mahjong. :) teehee~

I'll upload the pics specially for tis CNY and also our sistas gathering.

.....off to the NTUC with my mommy! Happy New Year peeps~

Fail, Flop, Flunk

2008-02-01T14:12:00.001+08:00

Just taken my TP in the morning...

Yup, i didnt make it. I woke up super early like 6am? I tot i wont do too badly in circuit coz had my last practice bfore gg for my TP. Who knws, the easiest Directional Change, i strike the damn curb!!!!!!! Ok, i admit i'm sOOoo dumb. I am so angry with myself. Bfore moving off, i almost hit the parked car and wad was i doing?! I can be more dumb than tht.

Anyways,
I MUST PASS THE 2ND TIME! This time round, i admit i was damn nervous and really have no confidence coz kinda lack of practice in the circuit. My slope, narrow courses and parking is ok, except the directional change is an unexpected. Arrgghh~ so angry! Though kinda expected i might fail but didnt expect it's bcoz of my directional change. *shucks!

I wanna sleeeeeep~

2008-01-31T17:17:00.000+08:00

Omg~! i m really suffering frm some kind of nervous breakdown. finally, tmr is my tp. i m suffocating..

H E L P ~

I really have no confidence in passing. I shall just keep reminding myself to do my best n treat it as a some kind of revision.

But,

i still hope i can make it. Luckluckluckluckluck plsss!

2008-01-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

I knw we look damn lesbian. lol.
Cant imagine hw zx feel whn he took this pic.

A night which i embarrassed myself to the max!!
Anyway, forget it.
Where's my drink drank drunk?? hai~

I seriously need some dolling up from head to toe
for CNY :D

I shld be born in the year of pig instead.
im sOoo lazy can.

anyone wanna hire me?? plssss~
im super broke!!!

CNY here I come!

2008-01-24T15:58:00.001+08:00

Spring cleaning time! Weee~

Which means CNY is ard the corner n my TP is just next week. I'm so nervous can. I can hardly slp. Anyway, suddenly have the urge to cook tonight. hahs. I'll be cooking curry chicken - mom's recipe.

BUT...i am so sleepy~ slpt for 3hrs ytd n woke up for my driving. Well, my driving still sucks! I'm sooo sad. Wanted to slp more but guess i better not. In case i cant slp at night. Alright, i'm so freaking pissed with my damn pc!! It always hang and always whn i'm in the middle of smt. Need to back up all my pics alrdy, just in case.

Update again. Ciaoz!

2008-01-10T05:07:00.000+08:00

It's been so damn long since i last blogged.

My blog is rotting. I knw. 2007 had ended. For the upcoming year ahead, i just hope tht i will be happier than the past yr. Had too much tears shed last yr till i cldnt rem the times i've actually laughed and smiled. I seriously feel tht being too involve in the affairs of the heart is a waste of time and it affects me so much both mentally and physically. Nevertheless, upon seeing so many happy ppl i knw getting married i felt happy for them. However, i knw deep inside i wont be the happy one. Wasted too much time on things which isnt impt will nt repeat again for this new yr. I'm so looking forward to get my class 3 and of course getting myself a great job so tht i can save enuff money to get myself wad i want - a car. I guess the reason humans becoming more and more realistic is bcoz they too realise tht they shldnt spend too much unwanted time on unimpt things. Practically, only money can buy them happiness. Not literally though. I und y more women r getting more materialistic. I guess only money can buy them stuffs which can make them happy apart from guys. It's true. I suppose my theory is correct.

See, having lots of money u can travel anywhere u want, u can buy urself branded, buy urself a car and even ur own house? If tht's so, y need a man to do so? True love doesnt exists in my life i guess, they r all nuttin but fantasy. Been there, seen it and done it. It hurts me so much seeing myself getting so involved. My case shld be considered rare?

I really need to let off my stream. I really wanna get my feets on the dance floor, on the drink drank drunk and party all night long. I seriously need to do tht. Otherwise, i will really need to see a doc. I'm slowly getting outta control of my emotions. Sometimes i wonder if i take it too hard but i can see tht it's accumulative.

All the comparison, the words, the perception, expectation, selfishness is damn killing me! I can no longer take it in my stride.

2007-12-06T02:37:00.000+08:00

I felt so numb.

I rem wad i was before & compare with wad i am nw, the drastic changes i've made..i cant imagine hw i did it, nw thinking back i really regret doing alot of things. Recently i've been feeling tht i no longer knw wad is freedom. Maybe bcoz i've nt been working but thn i just felt tht i somehw lost my freedom in certain things. I felt like a bird in a cage. I thought most things will be paid off if u've put in effort or even extra effort but actually it's just my wishful thinking. I realise once there're too many doubts & lies in a r/s, tht r/s can nv be happy. Having too many past issues & 3rd parties can easily trigger one's wound badly. Whenever these wounds r touched again, i got so agitated till i really cant control my temper. I cant stop yelling!

I'm really very pissed off at those bitches! Claiming they're so pathetic but the fact is also bcoz they're realistic! They want big $, more $ all bcoz their bloody country cannot give them enough & provide them enough. Isnt it the same as hw some guys think of spore girls - realistic, materialistic? Guys who can say they dont expect much, but if they dont expect much y will they wanna come spore & live here or even marrying spore guys? Of coz they cant expect much compared to spore girls coz they come frm poor country wad! Like we cant expect much if we're gg to US or Aus right? I really cant stand this!

I find it so hard to explain hw i'm feeling right now. Hatred? All i knw is, it's accumulative!

2007-11-14T17:48:00.000+08:00

Import Night @ Expo

Posh car - Lotus

1 of the race queen
Honda Integra - beautifully set up
Race queen for Honda EG6, pretty?

2007-11-02T18:17:00.000+08:00

We're the 1st to set our feets in the room!

I'm finally her stylist for tht day :)

Our full strength

The happy bday girl

w/o make up we're still so beautiful :D

Haven slpt for a night *still awake

A toast to our mojitos
we're the survivors ;D

2007-10-24T18:52:00.000+08:00

Us tgt with Bec's bf - Raye bday boy

My sistas & I ok i dont knw wad exactly happens here

2007-09-01T18:59:00.000+08:00

HELLO everyone!! I'm back! Hee. MIA in my blog for so long alrdy. Well, as mentioned in my previous post, i went to work with rebecca. It was a tedious job. Nevertheless, it was also fun working with her. All tht slacking we do tgt, breakfast tgt makes me grow fat can! I can eat 4 freaking meals a day!

Btw, my dear girls, the bday pressie i got for myself using ur hardearn $ is a Gucci wallet :) Will show it to you 1 day. Becca & I are both so broke! Working as a sales exec aint easy ya. My manager has been chasing me for sales and so happen my Exh 4 booths (total of 12 over thousand) are all gone! sobs! There goes my sales...

I need more sales please! God bless me..

Which Tarot card am I?

2007-07-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Feeling blue..

2007-07-04T16:20:00.000+08:00

Been some time since i last posted something here...

Recently, have been facing lots of ups & dwns. Sometimes i wonder if it's only a dream, everything will be so good. It's just like sitting on an emotional roller-coaster, bringing me to its climax & eventually come to a stop. Nothing is long-lasting for me, esp the happiness i've always longed for. I really cant figure out what went wrong for me. Why all this is happening again & again? When is it gonna stop? Life shld be optimistic as life itself is sad enuff but how to stay optimistic when nothing good happens? Yes, i'm very negative...bcoz of all this unhappiness! I really hope to get out of all this ASAP!

Hope after my 21st Birthday, it will bring me more luck & happiness for my strength to carry on my path........

2007-06-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

In the process of colouring my hair

Finally, aft 3hrs...
That's me!! Like a wa-wa..

Meet Jasimin gf today. Went to Cantonment to settle some old issues and headed to Chinatown dye hair! My hair stylist Elyse is a good one! *thumbs up! She is very professional and loves to dolls me up...Had a great day today with gf. Thanks gf! On ur way back in the train, stinky feet smell start to choke up the whole area..we were wondering whose feet was tht. *puke puke! Wanted to eat the slice fish soup @ Pasir Ris Dr 6, waited like hell for cab. Ulu pandan area with no cabs at all! Lucky we still manage to hop on to one. Satisfied dinner!

Finally recently out of depression. It's killing me. Now i'm a happy little girl again *winks! Bday approaching in abt 1mth plus time..gosh 21 here i come! A little reluctant though. It's always good being young. Very soon aft 21, all the 22, 23, 24....will come damn fast! Hate it! Huiru alrdy 22. Omg. Times flies. Miss those younger days. Have lotsa fun, nuttin but only fun. With all the drink, drank, drunk..all the dancing & partying all night long is hell loads of fun! But nw? Seems like punctured alrdy. (lao hong)

More updates coming up soon...(hopefully)

2007-06-18T16:22:00.000+08:00

Special thanks to my darlings: Rebecca and serene for the unlimited care & concern you've given me! Love u'all!

2007-05-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

I always believe that human nature is ugly.

Always full of the unheard truth, fake frenships.

Life is full of uncertainty. I happen to come across a friend-ed who behaves like a small kid. I add the"ed" coz it's a past-tense. I dont knw wad word to use for my tht friend-ed. Well, 21 is the official age for a young ADULT. Mind you, it's ADULT. Y behave like an immatured big baby? Your actions proved everything. Wad is the most admirable personality to me? It is: being able to ignore wad shld be ignored and let those ppl carry on acting childishly. Y flaunt all the materialistic status? Wad's so great abt having a LV, Gucci or wadever?

I want to have it my own. I wanna earn enuff $ to get wadever ppl need others to get them. Tht's me! Omg, i'm gg too far.

It's raining nw. I'm waiting for Serene to come fetch me. Meeting her for some slacking. Tired from work though, but damn, it's a friday night.

I need some clubbing soon.

Ciaoz!!

2007-04-10T19:27:00.000+08:00

Shimin's ROM just ended last Saturday.

It's a BLISSFUL one. That's wad it means. Everyone is so happy for this newly-wed couple!! The 5 of us used to be so so close during sec sch time. So many yrs of friendship is not for show ya. I believe not many ppl can have such friendship coz we been thru' thick & thin. Many used to be close to us, we had fun tgt, club tgt etc..but who r really the ones tht eventually still stay and r still friends with us? The ans is: NONE. Well, now we knw who really are the passing clouds and who are not. Afterall, time will tell. True friends are those that understands you, forgives you, shares with you, cry with you and laugh with you. Those that doesnt falls in this category i suppose they're just passer-bys. I am proud coz i've them as my friends. Really. Sometimes thinking back our younger times, it's really a memory that will keep me smiling always. I will only wonder y there r some who doesnt really have true & constant friends.

Been on leave ytd n today to rush my final project. It's done. The rest will need my darling again to help me... heehee... thanks alot! Back to work tmr in a new office. Sigh. Surely got lots to do. Well, everything is going very well for me maybe bcoz i'm in a complete good mood. My darling is gg overseas with Kenny again, this happy couple..another blissful one! Been tgt for so many yrs eh, so whn wanna get married? Darling, dont worry lah Kenny will marry u de lah.. dont keep thinking tht he wont bcoz of wad he told us tht day ok!? hahas...

We were talking abt those days. The 5 of us. So happy!

2007-04-10T19:21:00.000+08:00

A picture speaks a thousand words...

I love my darling sistas!

2007-03-30T16:17:00.000+08:00

I was browsing thru my friendster and looking at the updates of some friends. I came across quite a number of ppl whom i knew and were alrdy a mom. WOW! Tht's quite alot knw... cool!

Anyway, back to my updates. My office is shifting from Beach Rd to Orchard Emerald. Boring! Hate to shift. Orchard Emerald sounds gd eh? Can shop during lunch or aft work right? But the office itself sucks due to the dim lightings and the environment isnt tht great! It's like so messy and we will be sharing the office with another company doing educational programme also. siansation! I SERIOUSLY WANNA STRANGLE MY BOSS FOR ALL THE SHIT WORK THEY GAVE ME AND FOR THE PEANUTS THT THEY R PAYING ME! Hmmph! *bish*

I wonder y some ppl is so "pro" in doing those things to ppl. Hmm.. maybe i am not as "gd" as them ba...after all, all this needs lotsa "practice" and "master" the skill of it i guess. The ugly of human nature!! Dont too fast set ur judgement at a person yet coz u nv knw when the same thing will happen to u ok? Please scrammmmmm! Hate to hear u ranting abt ur life...stupid! What's so gd and proud of it?

Have to use this kinda way to fa xie! BOO!

Shimin's ROM this sat! This week is a busy week...stupid boss! stupid workshop! stupid seminars! stupid shifting of office!

Wait for my updates sooooonn! ^.^

2007-01-17T10:28:00.000+08:00

This 2 Gucci baggie will be my 2007 resolution!!

I will wanna have 1 paid by myself & the other one maybe as my 21st bday gift from my mama :)

2006-12-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

It has been raining alot for the past few days.

Somewhat like how i feel for this coming season...

I guess i nd to stay home more often...

2006-11-02T15:42:00.000+08:00

Devil's Madness! Dungeon peeps!

On Bec's bday!!!

Wasted!! (many thanks to me & bren! coz....all abt a girl's thing!)

She's gone with the Lambor, Graveyard, Tequila etc...

Thanks Yuwei for the care given to we girls!!

Boss in da hse!
Our lao ban here is one sexy pole dancer!
Wahahas..the part bren, me, steph & others laugh till we drop bcoz of Jasson's dancing!!!!!!!! looks like some kind of .......(tuu~)

All happily dancing away & orki's pole dancing is a thumbs up!

Manager came to bec's rescue!

Not forgetting me - the price of being bec's best fren!
Tequila shots too...! Bday kiss just for you!
Bren, our manager is a crazy bitch whn comes to party! (poor Yuwei)

It's a total madness lah...as u can see! (...orki's face damn funny lah)
Bec's halfway thr!!
Omg drink again!!! (all thanks to Russell..)
Poor Orki...got harrassed!! hahas..
Lovely Steph & Bec...
the unwanted kiss!!
being forced...hahas

look @ tht drunkard face of bec's..
ever ready for pics!

2006-10-19T06:14:00.000+08:00

Sisterly love!

2006-09-22T17:24:00.000+08:00

A bfore and after of myself...wad do u tink?